I Believe She Stood Barefoot and the Universe Ran Right Up Through Her Body
Jordanne Jones on Fiona Apple | N.S. Radio Broadcast
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I love Fiona Apple because her music feels like heart wrapped in darkness and darkness wrapped in heart — a blend that speaks to the scared yet open souls.
She feels it all, and she brings that raw humanness to her music, a humanness that aches with wanting. She doesn’t try to fit into one mould. She is both soft and fierce, hopeless and hopeful.
Her earlier music suggests that although she gives herself permission to be and feel it all, it is a chaotic and hard life. And this is something I resonate deeply with. I’ve often been scared of my big emotions, and how they impact my relationship to the world.
However, in her latest album, Apple expresses finding peace by “Moving with the trees in the breeze,” which I imagine are her big shifting emotions. She has only ended up where she is because she never denies any part of herself. And yet, despite everything she’s discovered, her heart still yearns, endlessly searching for connection: “And while I’m in this body, I want somebody to want, and I want what I want, and I want you.”
Her music is this constant companion in the process of being human, a place where even darkness is allowed, even celebrated, because it’s a part of what it means to want deeply, feel deeply, live fully. It is music for the ones who know longing, but refuse to let it harden them.
Apple is not just expressing emotions, she is inviting anyone listening to embrace theirs, even when they’re messy or contradictory.
Her music tells me to allow myself to be and feel it all, and that I’m on a path toward love and understanding by doing so.
INSIGHT | WHEN THE PAWN…
The full title of the album When The Pawn… is actually a poem penned by Apple.
When the pawn hits the conflicts he thinks like a king, What he knows throws the blows when he goes to the fight, And he'll win the whole thing 'fore he enters the ring, There's no body to batter when your mind is your might, So when you go solo, you hold your own hand, And remember that depth is the greatest of heights, And if you know where you stand, then you know where to land, And if you fall it won't matter, cuz you'll know that you're right
RECITAL | FIONA APPLE
PERFORMANCE AND LYRICS | I KNOW
So be it, I'm your crowbar
If that's what I am, so far
Until you get out of this mess
And I will pretend
That I don't know of your sins
Until you are ready to confess
But all the time, all the time
I'll know, I'll know
And you can use my skin to bury secrets in
And I will settle you down
And at my own suggestion
I will ask no questions
While I do my thing in the background
But all the time, all the time
I'll know, I'll know
Baby, I can't help you out
While she's still around
So for the time being, I'm being patient
And amidst this bitterness
If you'll just consider this
Even if it don't make sense all the time
Give it time
And when the crowd becomes your burden
And you've early closed your curtains
I'll wait by the backstage door
While you try to find the lines to speak your mind
And pry it open, hoping for an encore
And if it gets too late for me to wait
For you to find you love me, and tell me so
It's okay
Don't need to say it
Jordanne Jones
Jordanne is a mythical creature from Tallaght, Dublin. Her powers range from the supernatural to the super beautiful. You may recognise her from such educational films as “Nice One; A Guide to Dealing With Unfunny Jokes” and “Don’t Look at Me When I’m Talking to You.”
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